The Honest Truth Vol 1

Helloooo, everyone :)

Let me start off by saying I am a master at procrastination. I mean I can say I just do not have time to write or do anything with my life, but that would be a lie. Between Oscars day time nap and the few minutes in the evening after he goes to sleep, where I actually cope being a normal, functional human being, I must get at least two hours, where I could write and become the woman I wanted to be. But I don't do that. Instead I think about doing stuff for a minute then quickly pour myself a glass of wine and stuff my face with chocolate and pretend I know nothing of anything.

And then again, here I am, actually typing up some words I've been pondering over lately. This will be the most honest I've ever been over here at my bloggedy blog. This is really how I would always like to write. Honestly and openly about everything that goes on in my head....well not everything, that would be slightly disturbing at times :D But things that matter to me. 

What has stopped me before is the need to be liked. I would hate if someone would say something bad. I mean I still think it's me when I walk past someone and they laugh. It's a serious confidence issue. You might not notice it when you meet me or even when you think you know me. I don't come across as someone who is not confident. I don't like to show emotions(the real deep emotions that matter). Public displays of affection make me queasy. I really am just not comfortable with it at all...unless it's Oscar, I bloody love that boy just so much and I'm not afraid to show it. But in other aspects of life I just keep it to myself. 

Even with confrontation. I just keep it to myself. Don't get me wrong I nag about the little stuff, all the time. The dishes not being done, the rubbish left on the table, not having enough money, enough clothes, eating too much chocolate and drinking too much wine...you get the deal. But when it comes to things that matter in life I just bottle it up and keep it to myself. The most unhealthy habit of mine.

The second unhealthy habit of mine is swearing too much. I do it all the time. And I quite enjoy it. Weather it's out loud or in my head, but the swearing is really pretty constant. I'm ashamed to admit it, specifically because it's a fairly new habit of mine. Maybe it's my way of coping with all those bottled up emotions :D who knows really. 

The third unhealthy habit is actually health related. And to be honest, unless there is actual proof, you can't really know if it is unhealthy. I'm talking about my relationship with red wine. I just love drinking a glass of red in the evening once Oscar is asleep and watch disgustingly boring tv shows that have no meaning behind them or cooking shows ( I quite like cooking competition shows :D). 

Cooking shows bring me to the next thing I actually like about myself. I love feeding people. Not in a weird way as in spoon feeding them :D but I love cooking nice food and see people enjoy eating it. This is how I think I show I care....I'll give you nice food. Once that stops you'll know I don't give a shit anymore :D Or maybe I'm just momentarily angry at you. Don't read too much into it, Sometimes I might just forget to offer you food. But I am definitely a feeder, for sure, no doubt about it.

Now I am really deep into this honest rant I have lost interest in pouring my soul into this one post. 

If I tell you everything about me all at once you will never come back. So I'm going to leave now (I'm most probably going to go and pour myself a glass of red :D) and hopefully come back soon with some more honest truth :) 

Hope you liked the post about my 3 unhealthy habits and once thing I actually like :)

Come back soon for more, but really it would be really silly to keep coming back every day for a new post, because that ain't going to happen :D Instead why not follow me on Instagram as I will announce all my new posts there :) And also you will not miss any adorable pictures of Oscar if you do. It's just a crime not to be able to see his little happenings, as he is the cutest little toddler in the World :D (I totally biast at this opinion obviously :D hahaha....NOT)

BUT for now, 

Stay tuned, everyone :)

xoxo

Meril

Holiday

Hello, Everyone :)
SO blogging on a holiday went great :D Let me just put it out there before anyone else does...I failed miserably. We just had way too much fun and we packed every day with lots of activities and naps :) Yes...naps...most days we all had 2 naps and it was wonderful :D I will also apologise to everyone who has emailed me, I have filed the emails and I WILL reply :) As like I already said the Internet and WiFi situation was poor in Cape Verde. But here are a few pictures I took of Oscar on the beach that I love so much. It was our last day (not travelling back day) so we decided to take a long stroll on along the soft sand and crashing waves while the Sun shun brigth and the wind blew stong.

And if you haven't already realised then we are back home now and apart from getting more activities and adventures for Oscar I will try to get back to the old routine we had, because even though holiday mode is great... in the real world it won't work for that long :D I will write a few posts about the lovely holiday we had and then continue with the interests, hobby and family posts with a few little foodie ones thrown into the mix as well.

So Stay tuned

xoxo

Meril

Christmas 2015

Good Evening, Everyone :)

It is Boxing Day and Christmas is well...OVER :D As much as I was excited about Christmas this year I am kind of glad it's all done. We had a really wonderful time with some nice presents and amazing food...cooked by yours truly...and now it's time to go back to reality and out of the Christmas lights. It's really only just the start of winter though and we've got some awesome plans during Januray and February so a lot to look forward to :)

 If you don't know it already then some countries celebrate Christmas on the 24th, which is what we do in Estonia. So on the 24th we had a little tiny family Christmas. I started cooking at 1pm and then after dinner at 6pm we were meant to open presents, but Oscar went to sleep incredibly early :D SO we did what English people do and opened our presents on the morning of 25th. After which we went to Dans parents house for some more festive eating :D We did open one present each before the meal though :) And Oscar got this Gruffalo trunki suitcase, which will come useful in January...hint, hint :D he loves dragging it around the house :)

Thats the picture Oscar took :D

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and as always 

Stay tuned :)

xoxo

Meril

Life Lately and Why I Blog

Hello Everyone :) It's been a while. I thought that rather than stressing about writing and blogging I would just take a week off and not even thing about it. And then a week turned into almost 2 weeks, but hey, it's ok, I'm back now :D I did have a good think about things though. I came to a point where I just thought I'll quit all this.
I started this blog as a little update page for my friends and family back home during my pregnancy. At the back of my mind though I did have an idea to take it to the next level at one point, which is why I started writing in English not in Estonian. And I loved writing my weekly pregnancy updates and little snippets from the days. But then Oscar arrived and I found myself having less and less time to write and take the photos and keep the quality of the writing up. So instead of enjoying all of the process of blogging I started thinking of it as a chore. SO yes, I did have a think about weather I should continue. And I decided I will. I love writing and giving you a little insight to my life...think of it as looking in through the window. I won't sugarcoat it. I won't make things worse than they are. I will share my passions and my interests and I share my life. And I want to do justice to it all. So for the past week I have been getting inspired again and finding ways to get the quality of my blog up. Finding tricks and tips around the Internet and from other bloggers :) So hopefully now even if I won't have time to do as many posts as I would like, then at least the ones that I do upload will be better than ever :D
But for todays' post I will share a few pictures of my life lately :)

As you can imagine, most of my life revolves around this little crazy man :) And I wouldn't have it any other way. The little guy in the car seat is my friends little bubba, who is only 3 months old :)

He is just the cutest, funniest and most adorable little person I have ever come across, and he surprises me with new things every day :)

Every morning we play in his room for a little while. We read books and he crawls around with baby wipes and wipes everything :D

He has a new found love for our coffee table. He just likes to climb on it and then sit there and watch cartoons. And he knew very well I was taking a picture but he was pretending that he is not interested. And every time I had taken the photo he would turn and grin at me :D

There has been some good food

And there has been amazing friend time :)

Hope you enjoyed the post :)

I will try to do more concentrated posts from now on. As in stick to one subject, so stay tuned

xoxo

Meril